The Curse
What do you say behind my back?
Do you attack?
Because I’m unvacced (is this how you spell it?) like Novak
What do you say when I don’t wear a mask?
Do you shun?
Like a nun (one of those abusive nuns in 1970’s convent schools, not like the one in The Sound of Music who sings Climb Every Mountain so beautifully… Don’t you ever give up, no ohh.. there’s a brighter day on the other side ..)
What do you say when I break a mandate of restriction?
Do you frown?
And dob me in
Your lockdown
My breakdown
What do you say when I question the figures?
Nothing
What do you say when I ask why this is happening?
Nothing
What do you say when I tell you my gut tells me something was very wrong from the start?
Nothing – for a while then –
You tell me your gut tells you that on this occasion it is right
For the greater good
You tell me you are protecting others and our kids are protecting us too
Is my gut not worth listening to?
No
I try another way because, like the Sound of Music Nun, I don’t give up easily
What do you say, when I say we are living together as unique individuals in a totally different reality?
Nothing
What do you say when my mind jumps about, like ADHD and I can’t speak clearly?
Nothing
Am I allowed to have an attention of a different dimension?
No
Can we have this next year without fear?
No
I can live with your fear
I’ve succeeded for nearly two years
Can you live with my fear?
A society of two tiers
Apocalyptic fear
No
From the start you said I was conspiring fear
Isn’t this just an unveiling?
Do I have a right to question?
Do I?
No
And the media says absolutely not
In fact it says I’m a nasty horrible, stupid, nasty horrid selfish bitch …
I punch myself in the head to hurt myself like I did as a child
That’s what I deserve
Get out all this nonsense out from my head
Cause I’m stupid and horrible and a nasty little bitch …….
The cognitive dissonance hurts
Stop questioning
I’m on the verge
Flying over the cuckoo’s nest
Then I see the Nun
Her words save me
I also have a blessed and exorcised medal of St Benedict
Be as evil as you like in the comments below
I’ll blow
My head for each one
Happy now?
There’s a brighter day on the other side
Liz Bentley 